A hollow feeling haunts me
Why so much do I miss thee….
My heart as it bleeds a tear
May never see you again I fear.
My smiles and laughter all abound
Torn apart by my tears not to be found
Hope and trust shattered and strewn
As in a gloomy sadness I just drown.
I need a new start a new beginning
A sense of happiness ,a new feeling
Away from this shattered ruins around
A new Me that has to be found.
So God would you help me just seek
A me that is far from sad and meek
One who smiles even through sadness
Who accepts hurts with much more gladness.
I need to develop a stronger me
One that’s invincible so to see
A woman not so weak n fragile
One who has to travel many a mile.
A fresh new start…
December 29th, 2009
The green eyed Monster.
April 28th, 2009
Do you see the someone that I see
Rearing the green eyed head at me?
A squeezing hand clutching my heart
Just as my eyes begin to burn and smart.
A new distraction coming your way
One that I feel for a while is there to stay.
I struggle with my feelings within
Thoughts sending my mind on a spin .
Fear and jealousy chokes my thought
Would you still be there with me or not?
The new distraction taunts and smiles
The thought grating me as it riles.
Maybe you will some day turn and see
I am still waiting where you left me.
For me I just cannot see beyond you
You live in my heart , as very few do.
The way I feel, that I know is forever
The love I feel just wont change , Never .
So lets put all the green thoughts away
For I am here forever to stay 
Despair
September 12th, 2008
O5 Mar 2008
The loud voices, they scream & yell at me ,
I close my eyes in despair, why don’t they let me be.
The anger, the hatred, the violence that reflects in your eyes
They condemn , accuse & tear me apart with all those lies.
I look at my image & what I see just shakes me to the core.
Bruised, ravaged, battered & sad I couldn’t see any more.
I came into your life one day with so many special dreams,
I grew up pretty fast for you, just not soon enough it seems.
Every day I wake up asking God for a little bit more today,
The courage to go on in life just doesn’t seem to fade away.
I still see goodness in you, a man who is yet to grow
But I look at me & I wonder can I take any more???
