Unheeded my tears fall
They make no difference
For you dont hear its call
You have long lost all sense
I was just a toy you used
When you most needed me
Emotions so completely abused
That person now you fail to see.
A journey so far yet I walk alone
A destination not yet planned
Life seeming weary to the bone
No energy gathered even to stand.
Where do I go from here?
But walk in this dark I must,
So many things to worry and fear
Till one day I turn to dust ….
Archive for the ‘Sad poems’ Category
From tears to dust..
September 2nd, 2009
In the dark…
July 14th, 2009
Darkness closing on & isolating me
When the night falls leaving me alone
That is when I sit and really begin to see
What I hold on to & those that are gone.
Grieving and mourning ,shedding tears
The night’s silence covers me like a shroud
Negative thoughts giving rise to fears
My sunlight completely covered by a cloud.
Sometimes the glimmering stars giving hope
Shining in the dark and helping lead the way
Making me wonder if there is any tiny scope
For me to save my life from going astray.
The sadness seems to overwhelm so strong
A feeling of completely being helpless
Robbing me of smiles & my heart’s joyful song
Making me aware of all my weakness.
Help !!! Help me find my footing once again
I ask of you my Lord give me strength I seek
I need to get back to my world that was sane
Far away from darkness that makes me so weak.
Change of seasons
May 1st, 2009
The sun as it sets in the horizon
I contemplate the change of seasons
Where do I go ahead now from here
Leaving the ones who are close and dear
Heartless I am as I gave my heart to you
Counted you far above the special few
Made a big place for you in my life
A life that was so messed up with strife
A few months of joy, a hope to hold on
Before I knew it you were just gone
Dont know what tomorrow will hold
But for me there is a story untold
For precious seconds spent with you
Gave me a lease of life all so new.
I hold you close to my heart & oh so dear
With you in my life I faced all my fears.
Today I feel a little bit lost and alone
But I guess I am not expected to moan
If only you would continue to hold on
I would have the strength to carry on
I leave it all to the power thats above
Its all up in his protective hands now
The green eyed Monster.
April 28th, 2009
Do you see the someone that I see
Rearing the green eyed head at me?
A squeezing hand clutching my heart
Just as my eyes begin to burn and smart.
A new distraction coming your way
One that I feel for a while is there to stay.
I struggle with my feelings within
Thoughts sending my mind on a spin .
Fear and jealousy chokes my thought
Would you still be there with me or not?
The new distraction taunts and smiles
The thought grating me as it riles.
Maybe you will some day turn and see
I am still waiting where you left me.
For me I just cannot see beyond you
You live in my heart , as very few do.
The way I feel, that I know is forever
The love I feel just wont change , Never .
So lets put all the green thoughts away
For I am here forever to stay 
Broken hearted…
April 28th, 2009
A relationship of many years
So tangled up like many ropes
Winding up in so many tears
And dashing down so many hopes.
Thought I knew and understood you
And where you came from
Then the fibs began ,first a few
Till they grew and became some.
Making me question myself
What I saw and believed in.
Questioning what I really felt
Is this how Human natures always been?
I just hope you see where you drift
Or what draws you away from you
Is it in your thinking a sudden shift
Wont you atleast give me a cue?
Strained………
April 14th, 2009
I thought we were friends
But you became a stranger
A relationship that never ends
You risked it for life’s wager
The subtle ways you moved
Killed my spirits day by day
Till you had me all removed
Clearly out of your way.
An explanation or a word
I was denied of even that respect
Through your silence though I heard
What from you I never did expect.
Did I ever matter I wonder
For you let go of me so fast
Was I your biggest blunder
For as friends we were meant to last.
I hurt a lot , I may not say so
For my heart bleeds tears each day
For now I just keep myself low
Keeping a distance In every lil way
I hope some day you realize and see
When things are all settled and fine,
You may not understand how you hurt me
But I still wait for you to call me Mine.
A drifting Mind..
February 22nd, 2009
It surely is not my best day
My thoughts wandering away
I seem to be drifting along
No too sure where I belong.
A spectator so I seem
Life looking like a dream
It spins around me so fast
Today soon becoming the past.
Who am I & where do I head ?
Why within me do I feel so dead?
Who cares am here or gone?
Why do at times I feel so alone?
All these thoughts in my mind
Making my vision just go blind
This is not what I should feel
I better bring my thoughts to heel.
I seek to make a tiny difference
Not at my life’s event take offense
Can I take a little breather
Before from reality I run further.
Would you help me find my way
Help me see a brighter today?
A teeny tear rolls down my cheek
Would you give me help I seek?
DARK MOMENTS
September 16th, 2008
DARK MOMENTS
Apr 03 2008
A dark unease settles around me
Blinding me, I cannot see
Darkness around me surrounds
The yells, screams ,oh they hound!
The pain, my head splits in two
Feelings dead for i feel a few
A slow painful transition I see
The past few years have drained me
I tried my best, real hard to please
My life yet to see a new lease.
Future looks bleak full of gloom
No fresh flowers just withered bloom.
Strife, struggles, tears & fights
I see no end, there is no light
Exhausted I ask God ‘do you see ?’
I plead please take care of me
I seem to be hanging on to a thin rope
Life, even a single day shows no hope.
Wont you God hold me safe in your hands
Take me with you to faraway lands?
For Lord ,the peace I seek seems far away
My endurance screams ‘NO not another day !!!”
Despair
September 12th, 2008
O5 Mar 2008
The loud voices, they scream & yell at me ,
I close my eyes in despair, why don’t they let me be.
The anger, the hatred, the violence that reflects in your eyes
They condemn , accuse & tear me apart with all those lies.
I look at my image & what I see just shakes me to the core.
Bruised, ravaged, battered & sad I couldn’t see any more.
I came into your life one day with so many special dreams,
I grew up pretty fast for you, just not soon enough it seems.
Every day I wake up asking God for a little bit more today,
The courage to go on in life just doesn’t seem to fade away.
I still see goodness in you, a man who is yet to grow
But I look at me & I wonder can I take any more???
My broken Heart
September 10th, 2008
My broken Heart.
Feb 29 2008
It only seems like yesterday , you pledged unending love to me
Out of the blue , I get a call saying it wasn’t meant to be?
Whatever happened to all those memories we built together?
Did they mean anything to you, because they made my heart flutter.
My heart, it broke into a thousand shards after your call,
My world looks so bleak, I foresee my down fall.
Those hopes I had woven so many dreams around,
I see them come all at once, crashing to the ground
Your harsh words from which I may never recover,
Makes me wonder, how can I live, would I ever?
Even if I pick up my broken heart & try n put it together with glue
My broken dreams & my shattered heart still seem so true.
Won’t you turn & look at me atleast once?
Maybe I would see something for me in that one glance.
I still wait for that call from you each & every day,
My life balancing on that tiny string of hope, that today you may.
Though I hurt & still cry, I discover, Life still goes on ,
My heart, though the cracks appear, beats & lives on…
You have given me a gift so precious, it could be gold,
To love wholeheartedly ,so a story could be told……
