A tear drop rolled down my eye
A breath that ended on a sigh
A pain that clipped my wings
A heart that just refused to sing
Clouds that made my day so bleak
A peace that I so desperately seek.
Toss and turn I do in my sleep
The desolation in my life creeps
Each step becoming a real fight
My reflection a real bleak sight.
Dreams meant to crumble n shatter
My thoughts ,they no longer matter.
Would I ever find that guiding light
Before I totally give up the fight?
The arms that would keep me warm
One that could protect me from harm…
In Gods arm at last I seem to find
That light that keeps me from going blind.
Archive for the ‘Relationships’ Category
In my mind…
June 24th, 2010
I wish my loved one..
February 17th, 2010
A love that will keep you warm when you are cold,
One that will hold your hand when you are old.
A love that gives you fond memories than those told.
Ones that you can cherish n to your heart hold.
A love that helps you and guides your way through
One that is found by only a lucky few.
A love that helps build your life anew
Totally filled with colours of a rainbow hue.
I wish you all this and then some more
From the very deepest part , my hearts core
Blessings from the one above each n every day
Hope he blesses you in every lil way.
Solace…
November 8th, 2009
A heart that once was
Is now in but a clench of pain
By your hurful actions n words
What did you really gain?
Bleeding and hurting
I was left to wither and die
Is it any wonder from the world
And You I now just shy.
Each accusation and each lie
Cutting through me like a knife
Causing so much of hurt
And so much more stress n strife.
When I pledged my life with you
My eyes shining oh so bright
To my life that was a tunnel
At the end of which you were the light.
Thirteen years down the line
You ask me what I have done for you
As if all these years have just flown past
And I am someone totally new.
I now just believe in the one above
The one who destines it all
The one in whom I take solace
For he picks me up after each fall.
Maybe its time for you to start out
And try to do the same…..
Start life afresh with all changes
And start a clean new game.
Life goes on…BUT…
September 9th, 2009
The sun shines ….
…but clouds lurk in the sky.
My lips smile…
…but it fails to reach my eye.
There are flowers around…
…but devoid of any perfume
The music plays…
…but a sad, sober tune.
Life goes on…
…but the joy of it is far less.
Though I live on…
…I miss you I confess.
My laughter is loud…
…but tears mist my eyes,
The silence resounds…
…just broken by my sighs.
Dreams I still see …
…but with sadness they linger
For they remind me…
…that for you I still hunger.
Show you ,I may not…
… and what you may not know,
Missing you, that I do…
…like an ache that just wont go.
Life goes on…
…but the joy of it is far less.
Though I live on…
…I miss you I confess.
From tears to dust..
September 2nd, 2009
Unheeded my tears fall
They make no difference
For you dont hear its call
You have long lost all sense
I was just a toy you used
When you most needed me
Emotions so completely abused
That person now you fail to see.
A journey so far yet I walk alone
A destination not yet planned
Life seeming weary to the bone
No energy gathered even to stand.
Where do I go from here?
But walk in this dark I must,
So many things to worry and fear
Till one day I turn to dust ….
Words unspoken
August 25th, 2009
Each word you want to hear
I say it without a sound
Every word that I so fear
In silence not to be found.
My tears are the words I speak
The silence saying whats within
Pain as it rises and peaks
Sending sanity on a crazy spin.
Damage they did, the words spoken
Relationships they turned to dust
All bindings that were broken’
As your words just broke my trust.
Speak now I do ,without a word
Letting silence reach out to you
For words are double edged a sword
Their meanings often not very true.
A lost belief.
August 19th, 2009
A stray thought in my mind
A feeling of warmth that i find
So rare in the days today
I am glad it made its way
To become a smile on my lip
Taking me down a memory’s trip.
Those days of love and happiness
My face saw no trace of sadness
For you put that smile on my face
Those days went by so fast paced
Laughter that we shared I relive
Together when all we did was give
Then I guess was time for my fall
For I did from where I stood tall
My belief in another all strewn around
Lost forever never to be again found.
A thought..a feeling..
July 27th, 2009
Yet again today a thought of you
Takes over all that works on my mind
Though the time I get with you are few
You are with me all the time ,that I find.
What kind of a disease plagues me
I sometimes sit , think and wonder.
Why do I wait each day to look and see,
For you to come back n steal my thunder?
I will carry this feeling in me till I die
For thats something I know for sure
I wont anymore question or ask why
Or ask of you to give me anything more.
Tired and drained , so my eyes seem
Waiting to just catch a glimpse of you
Each day I wait for that tiny sunbeam
That gives me a memory to hold on to.
Change of seasons
May 1st, 2009
The sun as it sets in the horizon
I contemplate the change of seasons
Where do I go ahead now from here
Leaving the ones who are close and dear
Heartless I am as I gave my heart to you
Counted you far above the special few
Made a big place for you in my life
A life that was so messed up with strife
A few months of joy, a hope to hold on
Before I knew it you were just gone
Dont know what tomorrow will hold
But for me there is a story untold
For precious seconds spent with you
Gave me a lease of life all so new.
I hold you close to my heart & oh so dear
With you in my life I faced all my fears.
Today I feel a little bit lost and alone
But I guess I am not expected to moan
If only you would continue to hold on
I would have the strength to carry on
I leave it all to the power thats above
Its all up in his protective hands now
Broken hearted…
April 28th, 2009
A relationship of many years
So tangled up like many ropes
Winding up in so many tears
And dashing down so many hopes.
Thought I knew and understood you
And where you came from
Then the fibs began ,first a few
Till they grew and became some.
Making me question myself
What I saw and believed in.
Questioning what I really felt
Is this how Human natures always been?
I just hope you see where you drift
Or what draws you away from you
Is it in your thinking a sudden shift
Wont you atleast give me a cue?
