Where do I come from and where do I go?
Where Life is taking me I’d wish to know.
Where was I before and where will I be?
If only I had the power to look and see.
Caught in a moment and set in some place
Wishing I was so far from the rat race.
An album of memories my Frozen thoughts
Of the wins , losses , the haves and have nots .
Unsure of my actions Unaware of my choice,
My mind filled with this unbearable noise ,
Chaos reigns but from a stillness within
To the naked eyes hidden just not to be seen .
Voices speaking words not to be undone
Slaying each self worth ,almost sparing none .
But here I stand tall till the end of time
Though Being unique is seen as a crime.
Archive for the ‘Life’ Category
“ME”
August 2nd, 2010
A haze
February 18th, 2010
A gentle breeze caressing my cheeks,
The ray of sunshine warming my face
Peace I sought for so many a week
As I battled through my life’s race.
A small voice whispered in my ears
Reminding me am never ever alone
Asking me to face all my many fears
Forget all my hurts and never moan.
HE says he will soothe my hurt soul
Help me learn to live and smile again
He will make my heart healthy n whole
Promises to take away all my relentless pain.
Dare I again believe n trust in someone
Vulnerably do I expose my heart to hurt?
But For now my heart is content alone
As no more pain it wants to court.
Alone
February 2nd, 2010
Memories as they crest and fall,
As the darkness of the night calls,
A breeze touching her face so light,
Draining her completely of her fight.
A misery that overwhelms her being
As if for the first time one is seeing
A person standing so aloof and alone
Within her so battered and so torn.
As alone as she , a lone tear rolls
A cry from the very depth of her soul…
Heart so hurt its now turned cold
Icy fingers now clutch it in its hold
Dare you hold her unsteady hand
Help her up and make her stand
Give her the warmth she so craves
Before she makes her home in her grave.
Tears ..No more
January 5th, 2010
My lips widen in a broad smile
The smile refuses to reach the eye
But the eyes remain still dry
For I refuse to cry.
A fear freezes my heart cold
But the face reflects a look so bold
But my eyes still remain dry
For I now refuse to cry.
Anger that is seen in my gaze
A fire that sets my heart ablaze
But my eyes still are dry
For i just don’t want to cry.
A hope that is truly finally dead
No trust for hearts completely bled
My eyes still remain dry
For they just don’t wanna cry
A love that blazes within
May never yet shine again
For my eyes have gone so dry
I will never ever again cry
A fresh new start…
December 29th, 2009
A hollow feeling haunts me
Why so much do I miss thee….
My heart as it bleeds a tear
May never see you again I fear.
My smiles and laughter all abound
Torn apart by my tears not to be found
Hope and trust shattered and strewn
As in a gloomy sadness I just drown.
I need a new start a new beginning
A sense of happiness ,a new feeling
Away from this shattered ruins around
A new Me that has to be found.
So God would you help me just seek
A me that is far from sad and meek
One who smiles even through sadness
Who accepts hurts with much more gladness.
I need to develop a stronger me
One that’s invincible so to see
A woman not so weak n fragile
One who has to travel many a mile.
Shackles
December 16th, 2009
To begin with Here I am, this is me,
The one trying to break from shackles free…
To fly far away in the blue summer skies
Far away from tears ,pain, sorrows and lies.
The knots tying me down to this wordly place
Making it impossible for me to join the race.
I long to soar and the join the truimphant roar
Of each one who managed to slip through that door.
Each knot getting tighter each day by day
Leaving me with far less things to say.
Would there be any redemption for me
A day when I could just be myself and me??
Am sure its that moment I see lurking near
Giving me the strength n courage to face my fear.
Soon you will see my soaring oh so high.
A freedom that makes me reach out to the sky.
Solace…
November 8th, 2009
A heart that once was
Is now in but a clench of pain
By your hurful actions n words
What did you really gain?
Bleeding and hurting
I was left to wither and die
Is it any wonder from the world
And You I now just shy.
Each accusation and each lie
Cutting through me like a knife
Causing so much of hurt
And so much more stress n strife.
When I pledged my life with you
My eyes shining oh so bright
To my life that was a tunnel
At the end of which you were the light.
Thirteen years down the line
You ask me what I have done for you
As if all these years have just flown past
And I am someone totally new.
I now just believe in the one above
The one who destines it all
The one in whom I take solace
For he picks me up after each fall.
Maybe its time for you to start out
And try to do the same…..
Start life afresh with all changes
And start a clean new game.
Questions ….
November 3rd, 2009
What do I from my life seek ??
My mind at its questioning peak..
Every moment asking me why?
From all thats around me I shy.
Where do I seek to go from here?
More questions as my grave I near
Will my soul transform and live on?
My body die to give my soul a new dawn?
Peace that my soul seeks come after I leave,
After people I leave behind just grieve.
To God now as seems my leaning
Searching on this journey some meaning.
Life goes on…BUT…
September 9th, 2009
The sun shines ….
…but clouds lurk in the sky.
My lips smile…
…but it fails to reach my eye.
There are flowers around…
…but devoid of any perfume
The music plays…
…but a sad, sober tune.
Life goes on…
…but the joy of it is far less.
Though I live on…
…I miss you I confess.
My laughter is loud…
…but tears mist my eyes,
The silence resounds…
…just broken by my sighs.
Dreams I still see …
…but with sadness they linger
For they remind me…
…that for you I still hunger.
Show you ,I may not…
… and what you may not know,
Missing you, that I do…
…like an ache that just wont go.
Life goes on…
…but the joy of it is far less.
Though I live on…
…I miss you I confess.
