Yet again today a thought of you
Takes over all that works on my mind
Though the time I get with you are few
You are with me all the time ,that I find.
What kind of a disease plagues me
I sometimes sit , think and wonder.
Why do I wait each day to look and see,
For you to come back n steal my thunder?
I will carry this feeling in me till I die
For thats something I know for sure
I wont anymore question or ask why
Or ask of you to give me anything more.
Tired and drained , so my eyes seem
Waiting to just catch a glimpse of you
Each day I wait for that tiny sunbeam
That gives me a memory to hold on to.
Archive for July, 2009
A thought..a feeling..
July 27th, 2009
Hurt n Luv
July 23rd, 2009
I saw you from a little afar
As they crowded around you
My angel my glowing star
Your charm worn by very few.
My heart beat a rapid staccato
It fluttered as I looked at you
My feelings on my face as they show
A love with time that only grew.
Along came hurt with the love
That made my heart bleed each day
The ache still fresh till now
I wish it would just go away.
Yearning…
July 19th, 2009
Why does this longing never leave me,
Staying up most nights wanting you.
Waking up to an emptiness when I see
You are not around , making me feel blue.
The warmth of your breath on my face
The weight of your arms holding me
Your whispers making my heart race
These thoughts never letting me be.
Memories of each precious stolen moment
Bring such a warmth to my cold heart
Thoughts of you to my peace a torment
It has always been this way from the start.
A special place in my heart you hold
My reason for living …that you are
Slowly our story will now unfold
Its just a begining ,a start by afar.
This Mind O Mine..
July 17th, 2009
A whisper of thoughts
Struggling in my mind
A fight of haves and nots
Each trying hard to find
A foothold to make it
And see who finally wins
A light bulb to be lit
The one that speaks of sins.
A tussle they seem to have fought
Each one claiming its right
Positivity and negative thoughts
As they battle and fight.
A see saw of emotions
Sometimes up & at times low
Ridding me of some notions
Advicing me to ride the flow.
Lets see where it takes me
This roller coaster mind of mine
What else would I have to see
Before I claim to be truly fine.
In the dark…
July 14th, 2009
Darkness closing on & isolating me
When the night falls leaving me alone
That is when I sit and really begin to see
What I hold on to & those that are gone.
Grieving and mourning ,shedding tears
The night’s silence covers me like a shroud
Negative thoughts giving rise to fears
My sunlight completely covered by a cloud.
Sometimes the glimmering stars giving hope
Shining in the dark and helping lead the way
Making me wonder if there is any tiny scope
For me to save my life from going astray.
The sadness seems to overwhelm so strong
A feeling of completely being helpless
Robbing me of smiles & my heart’s joyful song
Making me aware of all my weakness.
Help !!! Help me find my footing once again
I ask of you my Lord give me strength I seek
I need to get back to my world that was sane
Far away from darkness that makes me so weak.
You..
July 1st, 2009
You brought smiles on my face
Then you took my laughter away
You taught me to face life’s race
Then you made my world sway.
I placed my whole trust in you
You made me feel like a treasure
Those moments were though a few
For you stolen moments of pleasure.
You played me like a guitar
I sang melodies like a bird
You looked a glittering star
And I one among the herd.
Seems You then just had your fill
Or to me it so seemed to look
Alone You left me to scale the hill
Leaving you completely off the hook.
May you find the peace you seek
Though it may just not be with me
May you scale the highest peaks
Maybe thats how its meant to be.
