“ME”
August 2nd, 2010
Where do I come from and where do I go?
Where Life is taking me I’d wish to know.
Where was I before and where will I be?
If only I had the power to look and see.
Caught in a moment and set in some place
Wishing I was so far from the rat race.
An album of memories my Frozen thoughts
Of the wins , losses , the haves and have nots .
Unsure of my actions Unaware of my choice,
My mind filled with this unbearable noise ,
Chaos reigns but from a stillness within
To the naked eyes hidden just not to be seen .
Voices speaking words not to be undone
Slaying each self worth ,almost sparing none .
But here I stand tall till the end of time
Though Being unique is seen as a crime.
In my mind…
June 24th, 2010
A tear drop rolled down my eye
A breath that ended on a sigh
A pain that clipped my wings
A heart that just refused to sing
Clouds that made my day so bleak
A peace that I so desperately seek.
Toss and turn I do in my sleep
The desolation in my life creeps
Each step becoming a real fight
My reflection a real bleak sight.
Dreams meant to crumble n shatter
My thoughts ,they no longer matter.
Would I ever find that guiding light
Before I totally give up the fight?
The arms that would keep me warm
One that could protect me from harm…
In Gods arm at last I seem to find
That light that keeps me from going blind.
Soaring High
June 13th, 2010
I dreamt I would fly so high
Reach the zenith of the sky
But could never touch the peak
It was a little beyond what I seek.
The more I began to stand tall
The harder seemed my every fall…
Broken n bruised more each time
Making my dreams seem a crime.
Clipped they were ,my wings of trust
To fly high ,heal well , they must….
Broken as they were ,my winged dreams
Re-surges stronger or so it seems….
Isn’t it hope that takes you along
Making you sing every life’s song ???
Dare I try to fly again so high
Make my dreams touch the sky ?
A haze
February 18th, 2010
A gentle breeze caressing my cheeks,
The ray of sunshine warming my face
Peace I sought for so many a week
As I battled through my life’s race.
A small voice whispered in my ears
Reminding me am never ever alone
Asking me to face all my many fears
Forget all my hurts and never moan.
HE says he will soothe my hurt soul
Help me learn to live and smile again
He will make my heart healthy n whole
Promises to take away all my relentless pain.
Dare I again believe n trust in someone
Vulnerably do I expose my heart to hurt?
But For now my heart is content alone
As no more pain it wants to court.
I wish my loved one..
February 17th, 2010
A love that will keep you warm when you are cold,
One that will hold your hand when you are old.
A love that gives you fond memories than those told.
Ones that you can cherish n to your heart hold.
A love that helps you and guides your way through
One that is found by only a lucky few.
A love that helps build your life anew
Totally filled with colours of a rainbow hue.
I wish you all this and then some more
From the very deepest part , my hearts core
Blessings from the one above each n every day
Hope he blesses you in every lil way.
Alone
February 2nd, 2010
Memories as they crest and fall,
As the darkness of the night calls,
A breeze touching her face so light,
Draining her completely of her fight.
A misery that overwhelms her being
As if for the first time one is seeing
A person standing so aloof and alone
Within her so battered and so torn.
As alone as she , a lone tear rolls
A cry from the very depth of her soul…
Heart so hurt its now turned cold
Icy fingers now clutch it in its hold
Dare you hold her unsteady hand
Help her up and make her stand
Give her the warmth she so craves
Before she makes her home in her grave.
Tangle Freed
January 24th, 2010
A silent breeze touches my face
At last I see myself out of the race
For I feel no more out of place
Protected by all of Gods Grace.
The quietness around beckons me
For there is a lot to feel n see
To let myself stay n let me be
From my minds tangles set free.
Across the earth silken ropes slant
The cleansing that’s heaven sent
Rains poured as if it was meant
To clean me ,who was totally spent.
On me as the rains lashed down
Wiping away from my face the frown
Refusing to let me go and drown
Or mope and cry in Sadness town.
The clouds in my mind clears
As I join my friends my peers
As the rain washes away my tears
For I have no more demons or fears.
Tears ..No more
January 5th, 2010
My lips widen in a broad smile
The smile refuses to reach the eye
But the eyes remain still dry
For I refuse to cry.
A fear freezes my heart cold
But the face reflects a look so bold
But my eyes still remain dry
For I now refuse to cry.
Anger that is seen in my gaze
A fire that sets my heart ablaze
But my eyes still are dry
For i just don’t want to cry.
A hope that is truly finally dead
No trust for hearts completely bled
My eyes still remain dry
For they just don’t wanna cry
A love that blazes within
May never yet shine again
For my eyes have gone so dry
I will never ever again cry
A fresh new start…
December 29th, 2009
A hollow feeling haunts me
Why so much do I miss thee….
My heart as it bleeds a tear
May never see you again I fear.
My smiles and laughter all abound
Torn apart by my tears not to be found
Hope and trust shattered and strewn
As in a gloomy sadness I just drown.
I need a new start a new beginning
A sense of happiness ,a new feeling
Away from this shattered ruins around
A new Me that has to be found.
So God would you help me just seek
A me that is far from sad and meek
One who smiles even through sadness
Who accepts hurts with much more gladness.
I need to develop a stronger me
One that’s invincible so to see
A woman not so weak n fragile
One who has to travel many a mile.
Shackles
December 16th, 2009
To begin with Here I am, this is me,
The one trying to break from shackles free…
To fly far away in the blue summer skies
Far away from tears ,pain, sorrows and lies.
The knots tying me down to this wordly place
Making it impossible for me to join the race.
I long to soar and the join the truimphant roar
Of each one who managed to slip through that door.
Each knot getting tighter each day by day
Leaving me with far less things to say.
Would there be any redemption for me
A day when I could just be myself and me??
Am sure its that moment I see lurking near
Giving me the strength n courage to face my fear.
Soon you will see my soaring oh so high.
A freedom that makes me reach out to the sky.
